You're a stranger.

You've become a distasteful person, and I never thought it'd come to this extent. I miss, not you, but who you used to be, and I'm sure many would say the same. I hate how you think you're better now, you think you rank above us all, but really, to me, you're dirt now. I miss having you be there for me, you actually caring. Now all I get from you is one-word answers, and awkward situations. You simply, disgust me. I don't understand how you can just 'of course, forget someone', and become such a shady person. You know you've become this arrogant person, and you actually LIKE it. Who's attention are you trying to get, really? You're new group of friends? Did you forget that past friendships actually meant something? How can you just forget someone in a 'heat of a moment'? I miss our endless conversations, and the ambience and comfort of our friendship. All I can really say to you now is to take your "image", and shove it up your ass, and take your head out while you're at it. I don't even know you anymore, and I'm done trying.

sunday night

Long time no blog.. and that is the pattern it always seems so follow. I really should be studying for my 5 tests this week, but instead I am blogging, because Adrian Ho said so.
Speaking of school..its just same old shit, different day. My courses got completley changed around the 2nd week of school resulting in me falling behind in a few courses, but its all good now I hope, and my many tests this week will show me. My Day1s are pretty easy, Psychology, Catering, Biology, Criminology, pretty slack! Its Day2s I dread; English(which really isn't that bad, except the fact we have a fattie list of short story terms to memorize), Math Honours(might I add, was pretty stupid of me considering the fact its the same horrible teacher as last year), Dance(its such a hassle..), then Socials with the Ratz, enough said there.
Besides school, my lack of employment is really starting to take a toll on me. BTW, my savings account is called 'SAVINGS' for a reason ! I'm vowing to not shop until I get a job. I was supposed to go job hunting last week, but I got hit my Swine '09.

Kidding..but I did catch the cold that was going around, and felt like shit and permanently glued myself to my bed for a few days.

You know what's really ironic? The fact that I've been consuming alcohal now that's school started than summer..Well not exactly, but the ratio of the amount of days sober to days intoxicated have surely changed. And that's not to say I'm an alchy now, I'm not! But just sayyyin'! This weekend, well Saturday night, was pretty fun <3 It was good seeing familiar faces that have been distant for the past month or so, and now thinking back, and looking at pictures, it still makes me laugh! Last weekend on the other hand, completley different story; started out well, reached its peak Saturday afternoon, fell on my ass ice skating(and my tailbone STILL hurts!) and other dramatic events, the next day I got sick, yuuup..

I'm bored now. My dad's currently making me read 'The Secret'. I forget who the author is, but I'm pretty sure its one of Oprah's books to read. Perhaps I'll squeeze in some time to read it between school, and job hunting, if I ever get my lazy ass up :(

i was a fool twice .

as school is about to begin, i must say; summer 09, i'm not going to miss you one bit. perhaps the late nights, and sleeping in, but above all, i look back, and there's not much i'd like to live over. forgive me for sounding like such a downer, but summer has came and gone, and has left no mark, no such thing to reminisce on.
or maybe im just sad right now, with this gloomy weather, lack of going out now because all i do is work 8 1/2 hours a day, and other such reasons that keep me up til the sunrises thinking, and the occasional water works.
so now that summer is ending, so does my job. FML, i dont even know where to apply and my parents have no part in my finance.
now i need to clean my room, and do some laundry without rattling the whole house.